Forgive.

I don't think my heart will ever stop beating so fast from the way you kiss me, the way you hug me, the way your say my name. Your love and promises will always make me smile and you will always hold my heart, but can I have your attention forever?

Grady died last night at 6:45p. I cried so hard and my father must be much more devastated than I am. I can't imagine how he must feel. I just want to be with him and not let him be alone at this time. He needs someone around, not to be alone.

I want to get healthy. I want to lose weight that the chiropractor said I couldn't lose. I want to look at myself naked and not feel this wave of guilt and disgust.