Non-Valentines Day.

I have officially deemed February 14th Non-Valentine's Day. I'm sick of the made up holidays to extend people's interest in their lives. To make people spend money for no reason at all, just for the mere sake of spending money. Now don't get me wrong, I love to shop, but the things you buy on these holidays just end up at a thrift store or thrown out or forgotten. The weird smelling flowers you bought are just going to dry out and rot, the chocolates are just going to make that special someone gain weight that you'll find unattractive in your shallow ways which will ultimately make for difficult relationship... see where I'm going with this? No good comes out of Valentine's days. So I've made this day Non-Valentine's day. And with that being said, have a shitty Valentine's day, wasting your money and your words. It's not a real holiday anyway. :D

i can't help but feel helpless. i can't help but feel like im losing touch. i can't help but feel nothing. why can't i just stay the same, forever. the thoughts are so awful but i have to do something. i need to do something. i need the feeling of nothing to go away. as redundant as it is. i need to let go. cut my losses. give up. go home. move on. it's not working. it's not what it's supposed to be. im too young to let it be this way. to put up with it. to worry this much. what's wrong with me...