Did you dream it?

I always dreamt of my wedding day, the big ceremony with the big dress and the fancy reception. But I never really considered actually BEING married. I just thought it would be the same. Watching a few shows and seeing a few real life friends get married brings the concept into a perspective. Does a few words, a piece of paper and some rings really change the way a couple acts, feels, and lives?

I am now unsure if I ever want to be MARRIED. Have a wedding? Sure. But be legally bound to someone else for all of eternity... that's a long time. And to think, I almost made this mistake a year ago.. Marrying someone I barely knew, in a place I didn't know at all. Is it all worth a good party and the spent money to be with this one person forever? I know, I'm speaking very cynically, but that's because I don't even know I ever want to be married. I'm so young, and he's so young; Then why bring up something that may never happen... to make each other feel "more secure" of the situation? Saying you want to be Mr. and Mrs. Something-Or-Other doesn't stamp a permanent smile on your face or a feeling of love in your gut forever.

Do you think marriage changes feelings and people or is it just a title?