Speak Silently.

I went to the lawyer's office today. He was really nice and up front with me, which is great. He gave me some really great and FREE advice that I am taking into consideration. He told me that if I wanted to pay him $500.00, he would speak for me at the hearing. I told him that I get nervous really easily, and he said that I shouldn't be because I already know the outcome. He also informed me that I would NOT be obligated to file for an SR-22, which made the situation a little easier to deal with. I hopefully can bring a good argument forward to the examiner so they know how much I need my license or to just get the 

suspension lowered or just get my probation extended for another year. I would be so happy if could just be kept on probation 

until I was 21. That would make life really great. But I do

ubt that will happen. I know I did something wrong and I accept it. And I am slowly accepting the fact of losing my license. I will be VERY grateful if I get the extended probation, but I am coming to terms with the suspension.

Lorelai and I didn't talk today, I didn't get home until a little while ago. I went to the bookstore to clear my head and think about what the lawyer said to me. (He said that I would be a good lawyer.. weird ha.) I love Lorelai for always being there for me. No matter what I'm like, if I'm cranky, sad, mad, happy... doesn't matter, she's there to listen and so am I. I really wish that I had the money to go there for her birthday, I'd love nothing more than to surprise her for that day. Maybe for her 18th. That would be even better, considering that's a big day, in the U.S. anyway.

Anna is ill and sleeping, I've missed her today. I think that's why I got upset when she wasn't at work when I went to visit her today. I missed her, a lot. You spend so much time with someone and a few hours away from them makes you go crazy. I'm glad she's safe in the next room.